| Sometimes I wonder about life.
Like, the idea of a god just seems ridiculous to me.
Because sure it would explain stuff, but how realistic is it really?
A being that was here before the universe and then suddenly created it all?
But on the other hand, the big bang theory is just as ridiculous.
There was nothing and then suddenly there was an explosion of all this matter?
So when people ask my religion, I tell them I don't have one.
I say, "I do not believe in a god, but I am not atheist."
I say, "I do not need to live my life for a higher power."
But I've also thought a lot about death.
How terribly sad it would be to think that after life there is nothing.
Though, if there is an after life I do not look forward to it.
I know, because I believe in no god and do not pray to one, I will not be welcome.
Still, I can't stand to think of my grandmother and all others I've known who have died.
I can't bear the thought that they are gone forever!
So, in a way, I do hope there is something after life.
Actually, I'd like to believe in ghosts or spirits.
How fun it would be to float about, still in this world but no longer alive.
Do I believe in ghosts?
I'm not sure, but I'd like to.
I'd like to believe they can talk to us, perhaps watch over us even.
Of course, they would have to do all this in their own way.
But still, it's just one of those things I want to believe is real.
Me and ghosts are like some people and god(s).
It's a ridiculous belief, perhaps just too wishful, and there's no proving whether it exists or not.