| gerard makes me cry
hmm,there are a lot of die hard fans,some teeny boppers,some idolizing him,i just happened to be crying.i know its sounds really hilarious,you might be laughing right now,some of you might me wondering why,some of you might be feeling the same,some of you would be laughing your asses off,hmm but some might be thinking why..i am a huge fan of my chemical romance
i probably watched every interview there is,and every music video was downloaded into my computer(but i needed to erase it,because that would seem crazy,hmmn)
gerard is an awesome artist,very talented singer and very very fantastic composer
infact,i can not find an adjective to describe him
he seems to be the perfect man for me...
i know i may sound like a bitch,that wants him..but im not those teeny boppers,i know its quite impossible to have him...i know he wouldnt date fans or whatever,but i just have this damn feeling that,i would never have him,i would never meet him,although yeah,,i know,and im clear of that,i get this feeling like,if only he met me...you know
the i love this man so much and i know i cant have him kinda stuff
the "he's happy i am" but though it kills...
its sorta dumb,i know,crying over a man you realize you can never have,but not in a teeny bop way...well,maybe."i wanna hold you my dreams and make believe that its true though i know,i know that its impossible to do,because your a star,people love you as you are youre a million miles away from me"
hmmm,gets more sillier and sillier,dumber and dumber by the second,i hate listening to them,especially watching videos of them live,i feel like..gee,i wish i was there rocking with em..i know im not just a die hard fan im like psycho over them...
i hate good dreams,because i would usually dream of mcr.or like other good bands then wake up in the morning with tears realizing those are just dreams that are far from me,billions of miles away of what i could have,.but though i am very disappointed,im still happy having this friend who text messeged me with this letter:
a message from God:
no man can ever claim you unless he claims you from me
i reserved a man for you who has my heart and loves me even more than he will love you
i wont give you unless he asks you from me
soon you will know him,i have the perfect time
you are MY PRINCESS,my DAUGHTER
Let no prince claim you unless he asks you from My hand
For i am your Father,the King of kings
You,my princess is worth loving
and then,i knew.it is right,gee might seem nothing but perfect,his my perfect man,but he is not mine.someday i would meet a perfect man for me,that is mine:D
and people might be laughing,hahahaha.laughing their asses off chairs,well its cool,but laugh at those teenagers who likes gee because his "hawt" or
"sexay" or whatever term they say,he is perfect because he saved my life,he is perfect because those music and words he sings ^_^